I just wanted to write a little life update as it’s been a while since I have posted or been very interactive at all. So here goes.
I moved into University 3 days ago and at the start I was extremely excited. My family dropped me off and helped me with my room before we headed out to do a food shop. I really loved how they stayed for so long and helped me out. None of my flat mates were around at that time, but I met most of them that evening and the next morning. I was feeling great the first day, all ready to start university life… and then I just wasn’t.
For some reason, the second night got to me, like really got to me. I think the fact that my boyfriend moved into his uni that day really just confirmed everything in my mind. That this is it, this is where we are going to be now for the next 3 years, this is what we are going to do and that freaked me out.
My family are doing up our house while I am here, which means when I visit back home, my room won’t be my room anymore. I thought I was ready for all this change, but I’m really not. Luckily, my best friend is studying at Reading too and she is in a shared house, so I was able to spend the night there. I just felt so lonely, which I really wasn’t expecting.
It should also be mentioned I have felt very ill these past few days, which has meant I haven’t been able to join the freshers outings like club events and pub crawls. I will be once I feel better though so I do have that to look forward to.
My mum asked me if I wanted to come home for a bit and come back once I feel better again, but I just have to be strong and stick it out. I know it is going to be hard, but I also know it’s going to get better soon. I am very excited to start my course and I’m trying to focus on that. The main thing that is getting to me at the moment is that I don’t really have anything to do and I don’t have any money to do anything cool. Everybody starting uni goes through this (or so I’ve been told) and I know it won’t last forever. I just wanted to talk about this to let everyone know why I haven’t been so active, but I hope to be soon. Also, I suppose I thought if anybody is going through the same thing at the moment, it would be nice to know they aren’t the only one.
If anybody has any tips to beat these uni blues then please do share. I promise posts will be back to normal very soon